Insanity

Why is it that men always think that they are the ones that everyone "asks" so much from. Not that may husband doesn't do a lot BUT really he acts like I don't do anything sometimes. So it is like 110 degrees outside and I REALLY don't want to bring my babies out in the heat ESPECIALLY with out broken car A/C, so say " I really need to grocery shopping sometime but it's too hot to bing the kids." He proceeds to tell me how the if will be hard to get a sitter. REALLY can't HE watch them? STRIKE ONE! Then a few minutes later he tells me how unfair it is that "everyone" depends on him and everything is always put on him...OMG I wanted to start laughing. STRIKE 2! Long story short I told him to get his stuff together, prioritize, and if he needed to take a break for a couple days. He shaped up and was fine when he left )back down to STIRKE 1!)

This drives me nuts, mostly because I know where it is all coming from and he keeps doing it to himself. It's his FATHER!!! Nothing is ever good enough for the man, he blames everything on everyone else or the "devil/his demons", and he is only out for himself. My husband is jsut desperately trying to achieve his approval just keeps going back like an abused dog. No matter how many fights it causes between the two of us, how it makes him feel about himself, or the numerous times he has been let down by his dad, he just keeps going back for more thinking things will be different. I understand that he is going to have to figure this out on his own, and for a while it seems like he has then it starts all over again? I remember hearing the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result. How is our marriage suppose to survive my husbands insanity? He turns into a comletely different person and is always angry and stressed. What is it going to take for him to just let go?

I understand it's his father but it's not like they had some stellar relationship growing up. He actually uses how is father was as what not to do or become! I just pray that one day he will wake up and realize that he has me and the kids; and a man who doesn't have anything to offer but critizism isn't worth his time. My husband is truly a wonderful man and a great father and we are lucky to have him! I just hope he gets it sooner than later!

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I am starting this blog as a way to vent out my everyday frustrations, but also as a way I can recall all of the wonderfully breath taking moments of my life. Everything from an amazing movie night with my loves to my oldest,Wyatt, throwing his brother on the floor because he was trying to watch Dora and Cash thought it would be funny turn it off. There are many high and low points throughout the day and I am hoping an outlet will help me to maintain my many roles as wife, mother, cook,housekeeper, and full time student with less complaining.


I am also very opinionated so using this blog as a sounding board will hopefully help me keep my mouth shut at times!